My relationship with food is an emotional one. I've had a sweet tooth my entire life, and I've always found it hard saying 'no' to carbs and sweets. I like "easy" snacks and meals. Things I can just grab from my pantry or freezer and heat up in the microwave. And while I've always tried to eat relatively healthy, it has always felt like a chore.
I turn to food when I'm lonely, upset, or tired. I turn to food when I'm bored. I turn to food when I'm watching TV, meeting up with a friend, or trying to get through a long work day. And on the rare occasions—be it a day, a week, or even a few months—that I have my diet "in check," it still takes everything I have to resist munching on popcorn, brownies, or bagels late at night. Once I start eating, I can't stop.
I've tried a lot of different approaches to developing a healthier relationship with food and losing weight.
During my freshman year of college, I refused to eat dessert in the dining hall and I forced myself to have a salad with every meal. I worked out at least once a day—usually twice. That summer, I only ate vegan. And it worked for awhile. I lost weight and looked great, but I had an incredibly unhealthy relationship with food—one that left me hating myself the day I "cheated" and ate veggie lo mein from the local Chinese restaurant.
I've tried Herbalife and Shakeology. Beachbody and Jillian Michaels. Cardio-based workouts. Strength-based workouts. Tracking my food in MyFitnessPal. Not tracking my food at all. Snapchatting photos of everything I eat to friends. Keeping a Google Doc with my allotted food for the week and workouts I should try. The list goes on.
I'm tired of having an unhealthy relationship with food. I'm tired of seeing the results of this relationship show up on my thighs, stomach, and chin. I'm tired of increasing the size of my pants and hiding in the back of photos so no one can see my body. I need to try something new.
That's why I'm doing the Whole30.
What to Expect From This Blog
I plan to approach this blog as I would a personal journal. I want to fill each post with thoughts, feelings, and reflections about my time completing the Whole30. I may not always be as raw as I would like, given that this is a public domain that is linked to my professional website. I want to be real with everyone about what this experience looks and feels like, and I will do my best to share the good, bad, and ugly while still maintaining my professionalism.
Because my relationship with food is so emotional, I will aim to keep the tone of voice as light as possible, so that my experience is not only easier for me to share with you, but also easier for you to digest.
I am hoping to supplement my weekly journal entries with tips, tricks, recipes, and images, as well as some of what I find most interesting and helpful from the Whole30 book, in hopes that it might inspire you to give this lifestyle a try yourself.
The Whole30 is a journey, and this blog will be one, too. I need to write about the experience because writing is the only way I know how to make make sense of this entire process. Posts may change along the way as I figure out what works best and what doesn't work at all.
Stick with me — we're going to have some fun this month!
Photo courtesy of Minimalist Baker.